Part III: When Cancer Comes to Call–“I’m Sorry.”

Believing that a trip to Costco in Cabo San Lucas will net us the prescription Greg needs, we head south. In 45 minutes we can be there. Driving to Cabo is more scenic than the trip to La Paz. Quicker too. Plus I can always find something for our larder at Costco, so I welcome the diversion.

You can see the arch from Costco.

Speeding along the highway, Greg is distracted by the ocean waves. Surfers cannot be within sight of the ocean without checking out the surf. This always drives me crazy, but he assures me once more that he’s paying enough attention to his driving task. I’m never fully confident, and ask if he wants me to drive. “No, that’s okay.” I know what he’s thinking: I drive too slowly.

Antibiotics in hand, (whew!) we settle into an almost normal rhythm for the next two weeks while he takes his medicine. After a week, I look inside his mouth and see they are working. The pustules are lessening and the redness is fading. Even though Dr. Angulo had wanted Greg to see another specialist, Greg believes it is more prudent to kill off the bacterial infection first, so we postpone scheduling that appointment.

Back to St. Jude’s for an exam after the series of antibiotics is complete, and the doc there does another swab for a culture to be certain the infection isn’t lingering. It’s well into September now, and the continuing heat and humidity are getting to us. Greg hasn’t been in the water surfing for about a month. This absence from his favorite pastime isn’t helping his attitude.

When the culture comes back with good news, it seems odd that the doctor is hesitant. He wants Greg to see the ear, nose, and throat specialist that comes to St. Jude’s from Cabo. He wants this doctor to examine Greg’s throat for some reason he isn’t sharing with us. It does seem like a good idea though, as Greg has been complaining that it’s getting somewhat uncomfortable to swallow.

As this specialist lives near Todos Santos, we are assured they will call us when the doctor can examine him. A few days later we get the call. “Come in right now. The doctor is here in the clinic.” There is a fluttering in my stomach. I’m not sure why, but something seems “off” to me. We thought they would make an appointment for a future time, but instead we hurry to town to see yet another doctor.

This new doctor has the look of a competent professional with a special lamp for seeing into Greg’s throat. We have come to this appointment armed with all the previous test results and after his initial look into Greg’s mouth, he flips through all the reports. He doesn’t speak English, so there is another doctor with us who does, as well as the clinic administrator and the doctor who wanted Greg to come for this visit. There is much Spanish conversation going on between all these people. We aren’t catching much of it.

The doctor looks back into Greg’s throat with his powerful light; he’s doing some probing. Suddenly, with a puzzled expression, he turns to the others and asks (in Spanish), “Why isn’t anybody talking about the tumor on his tonsil?”

With wide eyes and a curious expression, the administrator asks, “Has anyone said anything about a tumor on your tonsil? There isn’t a mention of it in any of this paperwork you have.”

We look at each other. I feel as if all the blood has drained from my body. Greg has a tumor on his tonsil? What? This explains why he has been having a bit of trouble swallowing. Incredulous, we look back at the four of them.

The tumor is large. Greg will need a lot of tests. There are places they can send him for tests, but not all in one location. They can send us to Cabo, and some places have other appropriate testing apparatus in La Paz. Others may be as far away as Guadalajara and Mexico City. “Do you have medical insurance in the US?”

The answers we give to the doctor’s questions make it clear that Greg should go north for testing and inevitable treatment of some kind. Greg has insurance coverage in the state of Washington. We need to get him on a plane.

As we leave the exam room, the doctor puts his hand on Greg’s shoulder, looks him in the eyes and says, in English, “I’m sorry.”  Neither of us will ever forget those two words and the pitiful expression we saw on his face.

 

 

Part II: When Cancer Comes to Call-Sore Throat

The endoscopy shows no problem. Back to square one. Now Greg is saying he has a sore throat. Is it from the endoscopy? “Open wide, honey.” I peak in and am shocked by what I see. All those pustules. Is this strep throat? After we share the results of the endoscopy with Dr. Angulo, he examines Greg’s throat and prescribes an antibiotic. “Vuelve dentro de diez días.” (Come back in ten days.) There is clearly a horrible infection in my guy’s throat. And it doesn’t go away. Not even after the whole series of antibiotic are finished in ten days.

 

Our dear friends, Sean and Dori, are both veterinarians. As you may be able to tell, they are also quite the hilarious couple.

We often discuss medical issues with them. Not just regarding our dog Isabela’s issues. Our medical issues too. They are doctors after all. Most of their patients have at least four legs, but what the heck? When talking with Dori, (she isn’t mincing words) she admonishes us. Apparently we made a big mistake not getting a culture done on Greg’s infected throat. “A culture will tell exactly which antibiotic will work on this particular bacterial infection.”

Of course. Anyone knows this. Even we know this, but somehow the location where this information got stored in each of our brains is malfunctioning. Asleep on the job. Like Dr. Angulo. Why didn’t he take a swab and do a culture? Instead, he only sent the fluid from the endoscopy to the lab (to see if it is acid reflux I’m assuming) and they found nothing significant. And as far as we know, the throat infection is not related to the original problem. But this infection problem can be solved with the correct medication, so we decide to stick closer to home and go to St. Jude’s Hospital/Clinic in Todos Santos to request a throat culture. As it turns out, we never go back to Dr. Angulo.

It takes a couple of days for the throat swab sample to grow, so we wait. For someone who rarely sees a doctor, my husband is visiting many of them now. He’s not a happy camper about it either. “This is going on and on,” he tells me, “and I’m sick of it.” If we only knew what was in store for him.

Things did not progress as we hoped. Now the results of the culture come back tainted from all the antibiotics he’s been taking and he needs to wait a week before they do another culture. Get the antibiotics out of your system and come back. August is turning into September and we are no closer to discovering an answer to our original question. Why is there pain with yawning or opening wide? Greg has seen 4 doctors in a month, had two procedures, and the only thing we know for sure is he has an infection on his left tonsil.

You cannot accuse my husband of having patience. He has not been known for it, even on one of his good days. While he will learn to have a little during the next eight months, he is sorely lacking in this area at this point.

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He’s not one to “reign himself in” about his frustration either. If you have a problem with expletives, you don’t want to be around Greg when he is exasperated. This time I do not blame him for being highly aggravated, but really there is nothing we can do now except follow through with the next culture and do some more waiting.

We agree to take one thing at a time, and the second culture gives us the name of the right antibiotic. A doctor at St. Jude’s in Todos Santos writes up the prescription and none of the pharmacies have it.

 

 

When Cancer Comes to Call–The Journey Begins

This is the first in a series of writing about our journey with cancer.

When you hear of someone being diagnosed with cancer you feel sad and, of course, sympathetic. If truth be told, there is also a part of you that breathes a sigh of relief that it’s not you. Of course you’re glad it’s not you, even though you are grieving with the one cancer has chosen to call on. Cancer is what happens to someone else.

Until it isn’t.

For my husband, getting the diagnosis confirmed took time, and while we allowed ourselves some hope it was something less devastating, we mostly began making decisions about how to deal with it. In the beginning we were stunned. This can’t be happening. We have things to do. We don’t have time to have cancer.

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2016

It started simple enough. Sometime in the beginning of 2016, Greg mentioned to me that he had a funny soreness when he opened his mouth wide to yawn or take a bite of a big taco or sandwich. Not a big deal really, but something. He brought this up casually a few more times, but by August, when it was still an irritant, I suggested he see the ear, nose, and throat specialist in La Paz. Dr. Angulo had impressed both of us previously; he was thorough in his examinations and treatments of Greg’s ears, when he had seen him after a couple of surfing incidents. My husband, who seldom goes to a doctor, felt a bit silly going for this minor thing, but he made an appointment for the next day at my insistence.

The hour drive to La Paz is easy, most of it on a four-lane highway, but there is little scenery to keep one’s interest. Rather it is miles of dry desert landscape. As a passenger, I might notice a caracara bird atop the cardon cactus and the occasional herd of goats, sometimes on the roadway, but most of the trip is monotonous. If we have to go to La Paz for any reason, we usually make a day of it for shopping and doing other errands. So for us, this drive to La Paz was just business as usual; this medical issue was probably nothing.

The hospital Fidepaz has a good reputation among expats and Mexicans alike. We’ve been going there for minor things for a few years now. It’s clean and the doctors have given us good care.

 

As it turned out, Dr. Angulo immediately thought Greg had acid reflux. He gave him a prescription for Nexium and made him an appointment to get an ultra sound. The puzzled look on Greg’s face told me he didn’t agree with this diagnosis, so when we left, Greg decided not to get the prescription. Mainly because it cost so much, but he swore he didn’t have acid reflux. He told the doctor that too, but with our lousy Spanish and the doctor’s inability to understand English, we decided to get the ultra sound and forego the Nexium.

Thank the powers that be the ultra sound appointment was for the same day, just in a different location. Angulo was adamant we see this particular doctor and not use the one at Fidepaz. That much we were able to ascertain even with the language barrier. We made the 15 minute drive and Greg got the ultra sound. The results were instantaneous and we were happy to learn that the test showed no problem. However, the problem that began our excursion remained. What next?

Back we go to Dr. Angulo armed with our test results, and the doctor insists that Greg has acid reflux. Greg insists that he doesn’t. Now Dr. Angulo wants him to get an endoscopy. Okay, we’ll do that in an effort to rule this out. We aren’t so lucky as to take care of this procedure in the same day. Instead we must make another drive to La Paz a few days later.

 

 

 

 

The Baja

 

 

resonating sounds of waves

penetrate the outer reaches

of my consciousness

 

surf hitting shore rocks

splattering skyward

while raucous laughter is

 

 

surging, blending with the breakers

increasing today’s seashore delight

a lasting frisson of excitement

 

 

in the outer reaches of my consciousness

Big Palms, Big Fun!

I’m posing in this photo just to show scale. This is one big palm.

 

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Bismarckia is a monotypic genus of flowering plant in the palm family endemic to western and northern Madagascar where they grow in open grassland. Wikipedia
In this case, the Bismarck is growing in our friends’ garden about a 1/4 of a mile from our house. We took Greg’s brother over to see the palm garden. Randy is visiting from Boston and has never been here before. It’s a whole different world for sure.
So many wonderful palms grow on these 3 acres of land. Lots of agave, wild flowers, plumeria, and other wonderful things too. It’s a paradise.

Brothers in front of a triangle palm.

 

 Lots to see at Bill and Shauna’s palm farm. We picked mangos too.
Don’t tell anyone, but I made mango ice cream again.

QUEEN PALMS

 

Such a gorgeous spot.

 

 

Seahorse

if were a seahorse

and you asked me for a ride

i’d have to say i’m sorry~

 this seahorse rides alone.

no time to be with folks like you

my life I spend with seahorse thoughts

in liquid blue, the waves are mine~

this seahorse rides alone.

 

My Morning at Home in Baja

 

Mala Mujer (Bad Woman) is a roust, winter-deciduous herbaceous perennial to 1.2 m tall, with stinging hairs 4-8cm long. Blooms mostly May through July, found in the cape region of Baja.

Amidst the decaying desert plants, clustering blooms are showing off. There were several of these along the path this morning as we walk in the desert hills by our home.

Hard to believe I used to hate the desert. I thought it was ugly. How wrong I was. Maybe I just grew up and started appreciating things more. The desert is alive with beauty, as are all landscapes, no matter how barren they may be, because life is there. Glorious life.

 

My husband and our German shepherd were blessed with lots of blooms on our walk this morning. There was also a bunch of garbage dumped along the way. Such a shame that people think it’s okay to throw their garbage anywhere–everywhere. That is one thing I will never get used to, living here in Baja Sur.

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I accidentally had my camera set to “soft” so all my photos turned out, well, soft. Reminds me to check my settings before I shoot. But they are pretty photos in spite of the wrong setting.

Because there was a heavy marine layer this morning, the light was pretty good for photos when we got home. One of our cactus–called a tuna–has fruit this year. It’s the first year for fruit. This cactus has been through a couple hurricanes, but it comes back strong. Like us.

Here’s what it looked like when we planted it:

 

 

Here’s what it looks like now:

The marine layer has burned off. The breeze is blowing and it’s warm and comfortable as I plan the rest of my day. Retirement means you can enjoy the work you do–working in the yard, cleaning house, doing laundry, hanging it out on the line. It’s all good. Life in Baja has its troubles, like anywhere else, but there is nothing like it. Slow and easy, enjoying la playa, el desierto, los amigos, el jardin, y las tiendes. It’s a sweet, simple life.

Mi vida es muy sencilla.

 

 

Ode to the Adverb

The adverb now is out of date

Obsolete and what we hate

No longer added to make it better

Slash it, write it a Dear John Letter

Once sought and used for HOW? WHEN? WHERE?

No longer needed, we just don’t care

Poor Adverb! Once a modifier

Now no work, we cannot hire

Not slowly, brightly, or uncontrollably

Not succinctly, proudly or simply horribly

The adverb now is shunned and hated

It’s sad demise so underrated

Avoid all adverbs! This you must do

To the worthless helper we bid adieu

 

 

Marcos Makes Beautiful Pottery in the Mountains of the Sierra Laguna

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This kind and gentle artist has made so many beautiful pieces for me and for many others. Some people I know have 20-30 pieces; some with whole sets of dishes. I’m well on my way to a fine collection myself. This photo shows the latest: pizza pans, two bowls, and a French bread pan.

 

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Marcos and Margarita live in the mountains with his sister. The drive is spectacular and sometimes difficult, as it was this time. The roads are not paved, and they were in bad repair from the hurricane two weeks ago. Glad we have a good Toyota truck to make the trip.

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In the summer it typically rains a lot in the mountains. It looks so green and lush it reminds me of Hawaii. We saw so many butterflies and goats and cows and donkeys. We got a glimpse of a deer jumping off the road into the brush. The butterflies can’t touch down in the puddles of water, so they land in the mud for their drinking pleasure.

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Look closely to the photo below and you’ll see them in the mud puddle in the road. We drove over it and they flew all around the windows of the truck.

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Yesterday, when we arrived at Marcos’s house, his grandson was visiting. What an adorable little guy. His parents were there too, but I’m sad to say I don’t know if the mother or the father was Marcos’s kid. At any rate, Margarita, the grandma, was enjoying her time with the baby. He has such a sweet smile. I got to hold him too as he put out his arms to me. I was honored. Thrilled. So happy to have a baby in my arms.

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His shirt says, “I’m with the BAND!”

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Maybe he’ll grow up to be a musician, or a potter like his grandpa.

Soon after we left for home, we ran into this guy. He doesn’t look too happy to us, does he?

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Home now and getting excited to use some of my new pottery.

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I decided to start with French bread. Here’s the baking dish before I filled it with my rising dough:

new-bread-panHere it is with the 2nd rising of the dough that’s ready for the oven. Fifteen minutes on 400 degrees F and 30 more minutes at 350 degrees F.

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Here it is coming out of the oven:

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Come over for a nice slice of French bread made in the baking dish Marcos made for me.

I’m in heaven!

Living in Baja and being retired here to enjoy the simple pleasures, like baking bread and

exploring the area, make me happy ever single day.

Morning has Broken

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Walk this morning took us around the neighborhood and then down onto the beach. The skies are cloudy with patches of blue. The bo bos are out in full force. For those of you who don’t know what a bo bo is, call yourselves lucky. These teeny tiny flying bugs have arrived and the only thing you can do is flap a kerchief around to keep them off you. They even come into your nose and your mouth. Yuck.

However, the sights and sounds keep us happy and there was a lot to see this morning.

 

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Along with the bo bos, many flowers were out to greet us. I don’t know what this is called, other than it is a weed. I think I like weeds when they are this pretty. All in the eye of the beholder.

 

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Sour pitayas put out these gorgeous babies. They don’t last much longer than a day, but they sure give me a thrill when I come upon them.

We’ve had a few showers and the desert is green and lush again. I love this time of year. Most of the gringos are part time residents and don’t experience the rains. Sometimes it is still pretty green when they start showing back up in Oct. and Nov., but they miss out on the lightning and thunder and showers. The beautiful scent of the desert after a rain is without a doubt one of the most luscious smells.

 

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When I get a break from chores around the house I like to paint. Rocks are my canvases. It’s relaxing though I’m sure some people, including my husband, think I’m nuts.

 

surf's up Baja

 

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I keep inviting my friends to join me, but so far I’m the only nut case showing my Baja love on rocks.

 

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I’m 37 years sober, so Nap Time is my Happy Hour.

I may be sober, but I’m not usually very serious.

 

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Don’t chase your tail. That’s my parting thought today.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Baja Wildlife I’ve Come to Know

Would you be excited to have a rattlesnake in your yard? How about a fox? Does standing on your deck watching whales cavort in the ocean sound good to you? If you answered yes to these questions, you won’t be disappointed with my photos of Baja wildlife I’ve come to know.

We’ve been here almost six years and I’ve only seen two rattlesnakes. One of them was in my yard (see below), but we quickly snapped him (or her) up and took him (or her) for a ride to where we’d seen the other rattler hanging out. This is about a mile from our house. Our “visitor” is the only snake that’s been in our yard (that I know of). I believe snakes are just as afraid of humans as humans are of snakes.

 

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The next critter visited our house when we lived on a hill overlooking the ocean. Foxy wasn’t feeling very well and after he went away we unfortunately witnessed the buzzards eating him for lunch. (Sorry.) But not before he posed ever-so-nicely for a snapshot.

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Speaking of buzzards, they like to spread their wings

allowing the sun to warm them up

for their day of flying in search of food.

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I can’t imagine being in Baja without donkeys. These are all from the East Cape. Cute and always happy to eat the scraps that the campers leave for them. (Far away from camp though…don’t want that donkey poo by your campsite).

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Is that one on the right pregnant?

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Leaving land for a minute we find sea lions napping together. Such cuddling!

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Snorkeling just outside La Paz we came across some small mantas doing water ballet.

 

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Not far from the mantas, this whale shark was feeding when we got this photo. Thank goodness they don’t eat people.

In fact they eat the smallest creature in the water.

These are amazingly large, but they are juveniles. No matter!

They  made my heart sing (and beat fast) as I swam with them.

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We weren’t the only ones swimming with the whale sharks.

These fish like to stay close to the big guys. Perhaps for protection?

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I think swimming with the sea lions was as big a thrill for me as were the whale sharks and rays.

They are playful and graceful and so much fun to watch.

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Rays also jump. I focused on them in a different blog, “Jumping Rays…Why do They Jump?”

The rays have been doing a lot of jumping lately.

I was lucky enough to photograph them on my morning beach walk.

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Now here’s a guy I could do without. In fact, Mr. Scorpion was at my neighbor’s house, not mine. Whew.

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We have to be careful when walking around outside at night. Wearing shoes is a good idea.

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This bat was also at the neighbor’s house.

The neighbor only lives there part-time and lots of critters visit when nobody’s home.

He stuck around (pun intended) for a couple days and then he went back to his bat cave I guess.

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This is an oyster catcher. I never expected to see one in Baja.

I thought they were only in the Pacific Northwest.

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Very common is the pelican. They are quite fascinating to watch. Good fishermen.

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The pelican below was doing its fishing on the East Cape.

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Making a splash!

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Along highways and like here in the mountains, you always find goats grazing.

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There are many horses in the mountains.

Sadly, this one succumbed to death and the vultures are getting a meal.

Circle of Life!

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According to what we’ve heard and read, this bird, a black throated magpie jay, 

is not found in Baja. And yet we saw this one in San Vicente in the Sierra Lagunas.

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The blue heron has a wide range. This regal bird was hanging out just outside La Paz.

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Another bird with a wide range is the osprey or fish eagle.

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Bird on a cactus at Los Cerritos

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Watching whales cavort in the water in front of our house

is one of the biggest thrills about living here.

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I do run across dead creatures on the shore from time to time.

Look at this eel’s eye and teeth.

Sea birds come along and eat the eyeballs. Vultures will clean up the rest.

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Next is a dolphin washed up on shore.

I didn’t photograph the whole body. Didn’t want to gross you out.

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Closer to home there are familiar, friendly birds (house finch and orioles) who come to eat and nest.

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I couldn’t resist including the dragonfly. His wings are exquisite, don’t you agree?

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Although I have done entire entries on turtles, I am including a few photos

here of the turtles I’ve witnessed heading to the ocean after hatching

on the beach in front of our house.

The excitement of seeing this phenomenon never gets old.

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A little beach glass and a shell makes a cute turtle.

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The real thing is much better. These guys were heading down to the water.

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Thanks for coming along as I shared Baja wildlife I’ve come to know!

 

Jumping Rays–Why do they jump?

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Who knows? Scientists can only speculate. I’ve found many sites that discuss their jumping behavior. One that I liked is http://www.bbc.com/earth/story/20150512-watch-these-giant-rays-fly. It’s a short article, and like other scientists, Joshua Stewart, from the Gulf of California Marine Program at Scripps Institution of Oceanography, says:

“As far as we can tell, all mobulid rays jump, as do their myliobatid (eagle rays) cousins. Many theories have been suggested [as to why they jump], from feeding, courting, communicating, and ridding themselves of parasites.”

I guess I can speculate too. They jump because they can. They jump for joy. They jump so I can take their pictures. They were doing their spectacular show for us on our morning walk right across the street from our house.
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Our dog wasn’t paying attention though. All she cares about on our morning walks is catching her ball.
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Last night we had a terrific sunset and this morning we were treated to jumping rays. This beautiful place never ceases to amaze us and we count our blessings every day.
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Retirement is the best job I’ve ever had. All that work we did to prepare us for this was worth it. I’m jumping for joy just like the rays!
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Tandem Jumpers!
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 Hope you are having as much fun as we are.